Nerves from Change

So, I have always struggled with change...I tend to go into bouts of depression and/or struggle with why God has put so many changes in my life.  In reality - I have had to change things a lot...Since I was 12, I have been moving every 3 years or so - and they haven't ever really been simple moves, but rather big ones...Move States, move continents, etc.  This is the first time in my life that my change issue comes with physically staying in the same location, but just moving jobs. 

The funny thing about that is - this is a big change from what I am used to...Each of my previous examples of work places I have been completely uprooted - New home, new place, new churches, no friends.  This time I keep all the same social aspects of life, but change jobs...And I think I am more nervous about this job than any...

But why am I nervous?  Well - change is scary...Change means new things, new impressions, new judgments.  Face it - most people will judge us instantly...And that is scary.  More than anything I get nervous because I doubt myself.  Perhaps this isn't what God wanted for me?  Perhaps I sold out when I chose the safety that comes with a manufacturing job rather than waiting on news for something different? 

Reality - Worry doesn't come from God - peace of mind comes from God.  I worry, because I have stopped trusting that this is His permissive will for me.  God wants me in Northern Kentucky for some reason or another - and He wants me to be provided for, however it is that I choose.  As much as my heart desires and longs for a time to go on the mission field and help those that are impoverished and hurting, God has told me that Now is not the time...In fact - He point blank told me that tonight...Wait in Him, enjoy the ride, praise Him in everything we do...Amazing what a difference that can make. 

So as much as I am nervous - I am trusting that God will provide for me and prepare the path for me with my new job tomorrow.  He will be there for each of us...sometimes it's hard to imagine, sometimes we don't necessarily feel His presence among our friends and/or family, but God is there hoping you will include Him in your day!