Crossroads

Essentially the last few months have been a lot of different crossroads for me...I have thought about it over and over and over...I have tried to figure out what God has prepared me for, I have tried to figure out why I have been placed at these crossroads of where to live, what jobs to take, how to provide for myself, etc, etc. 

The reality of it is though - I don't think there is an answer.  At least not an answer that I am suppose to know.  My job is to trust God and trust Him fully...My job is to choose Him no matter what the crossroad is that faces me...This was emphasized to me again today in both Sunday School(ABF) and church.  I love it and it frightens me (Mostly it frightens the control freak side of me).

I don't know what is stirring in me, or what God has prepared me for, but I know He isn't done.  I may have started a job this week, and chosen what I believe He wants me to do for now, but that's not the end of the decisions.  Every road we travel has a lot of turn-offs and a lot of curbs.  We still have to pay attention or we might run past a curb and straight off a cliff.  We have to make sure we veer when God says, not when we want to. One turn-off may look exciting to us, but we still have to make sure we ask God what it is that He wants from us...That exciting path may be where everyone else on the road is going, but that doesn't make it right. 

Defying the crowd, defying friendships - that's hard.  It's not easy to say NO to the ones you love...To let them know that You will love them no matter what, but can't morally agree with a decision, or can't participate in something with them because it stands against what you believe.  For me - I believe it's even harder, when you allowed yourself to stray away and do things you didn't agree with with those friends.  To tell them No now, that's hard.  But God doesn't convict you of something without reason - Never doubt the convictions God puts on your heart.  FOLLOW THEM.  Don't allow yourself to fall into the paths of the world, because it is fun and easy.  In the long run our goal in this life isn't to be happy and live content, fun lives, but rather it is to Serve God to the fullest no matter what the circumstances. 

When you face your next crossroad - figure out which path you are going to take...Do you choose Jesus' path or the path of the crowd?